When You Lose Focus

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on the blog. A lot of things have come up, some of which I’m can’t explain at the moment. There is one thing I have realized during my break from blogging though.

I have completely lost focus on the big picture.

My last post became fairly popular. I struck a nerve that many people could relate to. But if I could be very honest, I don’t think it came from a heart of grace.

It came from a soul that is still recovering from past hurts and wounds.

It came from the feeling of inadequacy, of “never enough so I’ve had enough”.

It came from hurtful experiences, such as the woman who asked why I wasn’t going on a missions trip to build houses while I was 15 weeks pregnant.

I can’t avoid such experiences. As long as I’m married to a pastor, people will continue to have a false expectations of who I am and what I do. However, my focus for this blo wasn’t to dwell on the negative but to praise God through it. And quite honestly, I think I have lost that focus.

I won’t be writing as much because life is currently super crazy at the moment. But I hope to gain my focus back and my purposes for writing. The last thing I want is to turn this blog into a church bashing session.

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4 thoughts on “When You Lose Focus

  1. I’ve missed you! Glad you’re back – and that you’re finding your focus. (That balance between blogging and life and what to blog about life… Whew!) Praying for your words. I love your honesty and compassion. Keep telling your story! 🙂

  2. I’m glad you’re back! And saying a little prayer for you. I know staying focused can be hard. I don’t know if it helps, but I didn’t see your last post as a “church bashing session.” We church members are all human and all flawed – sometimes we need a reality check from the other side of the pews.

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